Overdue

As'Salamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah wa Barakatu

The feeling of being slightly overdue is horrible!
What am i doing wrong thats making my little baby not want to be here right now?
Does he think i'm not a good enough mom?
Is he just stubborn?
Well if he is then I guess I would be able to understand because his mommy and daddy are both sort of stubborn and bull-headed.
These are the times where as though I feel as if my parenting skills are being tested and questioned.
Do I believe I can be a good mommy?
Actually yes I do!
At first honestly I questioned my own abilities on whether I could survive motherhood
and survive on my own due to the temporary situation we have been put in
but then slowly I gradually told myself that life happens
in its own way and there is nothing that god would put you through
that he doesn't believe you would be able to handle!
I tell myself this time and time again but yet still sometimes I get mad or upset that it's me that has to go through so much crap.
Maybe he's not here yet because he knows mommy is already stressed out and he doesn't want to come and add more to that
but I tell him every night its okay if he stresses me out,
make me cry
keep me woke all night
always want me to hold him
because I know he deserves it all and I would give it all up just to have him lying beside me sleeping peacefully!

My love for the new mothers have grown so much over the last few weeks
they waitied their time out and at the end of the day they received their reward!
Guess I'll just have to anxiously wait for my reward to come upon

god I know your listening just please bring him to me safe, healthy and sound.